I wasn’t enjoying the sewing and even though I have only two or three garments to go I have simply lost the desire to finish this year.
I seem to have had an ambiguous relationship with SWAP 2016 from the start when I found it hard to commit and get started. I didn’t get excited by the brief this year so I tried to make up my own rules. I decided I would work on my construction techniques, and chose advanced patterns and difficult fabrics (silk chiffon, slippery silk, sandwashed silk, sequins, leather, plus lots of embellishment), but I never quite got the finish I sought.
Karen Kbenco commented yesterday:
It seems to me that having a beautiful fabric in the collection, and working with extensively in the imagination, often means that when the fabric becomes a garment, there is no possible way that it can meet my expectations. However, sometimes these garments that initially are a little disappointing, not matching my inner vision, later become favourite pieces in my wardrobe.
I like most of the items, but perhaps not together (too dressy). Individually they will all become key parts of my summer wardrobe, but I just don’t want to do matchy-matchy. I will, over time, put on the various garments and show you how I am wearing them, but I have run out of puff.
I know I still have plenty of time to change the plan and introduce two or three new ideas. Last year I did make big changes (but a little earlier than this point). In an ideal world, where I didn’t have a job, family and other commitments, I might have thought about a new plan. Maybe a jersey jacket in pink, or some lilac jeans. I don’t know. But I do know I haven’t got the time or the bandwidth to rethink the whole plan now.
Of course there is an opportunity to submit two previously made or RTW items. But I wouldn’t be happy with that. And besides what I actually want to make is my complicated Schiaparelli blouse, a Chanel type jacket and the Karen dress (a kind gift from Kim) and some Vogue summer dresses. And none of these items easily slips into my SWAP.
I don’t feel disappointed. I actually feel relieved. I don’t want my SWAP plans to dictate to me at the moment. I have some difficult things to deal with in my life and I don’t really want to challenge myself in terms of sewing. So I am going to let it go now, with pleasure about what I have achieved, and appreciation of all those who are carrying on.
This gives me the space to take a little break. To sew without a deadline. And to sort out my house which is getting a bit messy and crowded. I will enjoy putting away my SWAP fabrics and patterns, and spring cleaning the house. If I can let go of worry about my unfinished SWAP – I know I will feel better. I want to say a big, grateful, thank you to the very kind people who have cheered on all my efforts and salute those who are focused on reaching the finishing line. For me there is always next year….